Forever Forever

Forever Forever

松居　慶子　ー　Forever forever.

After 3 months of arduous practice and intent listening, the song I've been trying to transpose is nearly complete. I have once again proven to myself that patience, persistence and some measure of insanity are necessary to accomplish the impossible.

A friend of mine told me that it would take me years to learn to play this song after she heard it. Afterall, I can barely read music and wanted to attempt this song having played the piano for a month. Oh and the music sheet I found was incomplete and moderately simplified. The composer took out the hardest yet the prettiest parts when she penned the music.

But it still burns to hear her comment.

I love to be talked down. I can then show what I'm made of: pure stubborn.

I struggled for hours. I was going nowhere for a long time. But I sat at the piano, ipod in my ear, repeating the same 5 second interval of the song for hours on end, pressing countless key combinations, played a variation of a certain segment for days to match the speed of the song then played with the song playing in my ipod to realize that my variation was unpolished and awkward, back to try other key combinations. This happened over and over again.

I tasted pure stubborn at the back of my throat, from the weight of my eyelids and the strain on my neck.

Mastery came very slowly, but its rewards grew sweeter with each tiny step. It was the happiest I've felt in a long time.

This song is a reminder to myself, that I am still capable of sustained insanity. That I can trust myself to get things done.