好久没以中文书写了。试一试。
最近生活非常忙碌。研究与日文课占据了大半的时间。得到周末方能安心的睡。常常与时间赛跑；也都常常败。
因该感觉很充实的。心中却始终存有个空虚。
曾经认为生命的真谛就珍藏在人与人之间的坦诚，爱护。如今人在情薄的异乡，自立心较强，情操的幅度也得相对的减弱。空虚的感觉也似乎扩散了一些。欲强是否也就得承受孤单呢？
My world is unravelling. I hope that there would be a spot left to stand on when it's done falling apart.
Very often, I seek a simplicity which my life simply can't sustain. I suspect that is what a partner is supposed provide. I wonder how long it will last? Probably long enough to deceive both individuals to give marriage a shot. I know I am lame in thinking about starting a family now. But I'm turning 27 this year and such intermittent thoughts are inevitable.
But tonight, I will go home where an empty room, and the scent of sleepy bedsheets will greet me. Of course, that would probably be 4am in the morning again.
I am a little tired. Nothing seems to possible now. I just wish that someone would know.
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I'm feeling lost too, Duane. I haven't had a job since May-- 10 long months. It's getting to a point where I question if people even notice I exist, or if there's something glaringly wrong with me that I can't see. Now my roommate is trying to kick me out of our apartment because he "wants his own place." What is happening to my life?
Then I sit down and thank Jah that I have friends and family who love me. Your friends love you too, Duane. Have faith that your life will work out, and let come what will. That's what I'm doing.
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